"I think too much. I think ahead. I think behind. I think sideways. I think it all. If it exists, I’ve fucking thought of it."
written by Winona Ryder (via wanduring)
written by Winona Ryder (via wanduring)
Sometimes I feel like life goes by so slowly. And that although one hour is only sixty minutes; I can feel every second within every minute that goes by. It sounds so pointless. Trust me, I know… But sometimes I will look at the clock and it will be 12:34. I will go do something, and when I come back it hasn’t even been five minutes. Maybe I have a bad sense of time. But maybe I just don’t appreciate it enough.
I waste my time complaining about all of these things that are wrong with my life. “This stresses me out” or “I don’t like this.” Nothing is mandatory. We all think that going to school or getting a career is mandatory. Where is this rule book that we are all living by?
I guess all I’m trying to say is that sometimes I think that I am “only 18 years old.” And yeah, to a lot of people older than me, I am only 18 years old. But if you think about it this way, it makes time seem so valuable: I am almost twenty. Most people live until they are between 80 years old to 100 years old. If I divide each section of my life by 20 years, this section is almost over. I will then have between 3-4 more sections left. That is nothing… That is so miniscule. People always wonder why I have such an urge to travel everywhere. I want to see the world before it is too late. Buildings are blowing up, tsunami’s are wiping out cities… One day all of these beautiful sights might be gone. My children are going to ask me where I have been to, and I want to say “everywhere.” I want to have insight and stories about every single continent, country, and city that I have been to. Because maybe one day this wonderful city that I visited won’t exist when my children grow up.
If I decide that I don’t want to go to school, then I’m going to choose to not go to school. I have faith that no matter what I end up doing in life, that I will make something of myself. I do not need a piece of paper that tells me I am worthy… Because I AM worthy. We are all capable of doing anything that we put our hearts into… We don’t need a diploma or a degree to prove it.
I have 3 to 4 sections of my life left to live. How am I going to choose to spend it? I’m going to live.
I waste my time complaining about all of these things that are wrong with my life. “This stresses me out” or “I don’t like this.” Nothing is mandatory. We all think that going to school or getting a career is mandatory. Where is this rule book that we are all living by?
I guess all I’m trying to say is that sometimes I think that I am “only 18 years old.” And yeah, to a lot of people older than me, I am only 18 years old. But if you think about it this way, it makes time seem so valuable: I am almost twenty. Most people live until they are between 80 years old to 100 years old. If I divide each section of my life by 20 years, this section is almost over. I will then have between 3-4 more sections left. That is nothing… That is so miniscule. People always wonder why I have such an urge to travel everywhere. I want to see the world before it is too late. Buildings are blowing up, tsunami’s are wiping out cities… One day all of these beautiful sights might be gone. My children are going to ask me where I have been to, and I want to say “everywhere.” I want to have insight and stories about every single continent, country, and city that I have been to. Because maybe one day this wonderful city that I visited won’t exist when my children grow up.
If I decide that I don’t want to go to school, then I’m going to choose to not go to school. I have faith that no matter what I end up doing in life, that I will make something of myself. I do not need a piece of paper that tells me I am worthy… Because I AM worthy. We are all capable of doing anything that we put our hearts into… We don’t need a diploma or a degree to prove it.
I have 3 to 4 sections of my life left to live. How am I going to choose to spend it? I’m going to live.
